| It's been like a year |
[27 Apr 2008|09:47am] |
so i'm only doing this because i've realized i have a record of exactly how i was feeling for the past two years on this exact day. so i would like to see how we compare this year.
top 10 of the day in 2008:
1. It's sunday and i have to group project all day, what's new.
2. Spring fling was yesterday...amazing!...lifehouse and matt nathanson rocked my socks
3. I'm starting to freak out about real grown up adult life.
4. I love my clinicals. and my floor. and my nurses, and i cant wait to start real work with them in june.
5. I have been in the best moods lately...i think it's the sun
6. I have a sunburn
7. jason from lifehouse house winked at me
8. I'm excited for all the senior year activities that are coming up in the next few weeks.
9. At clinical the other day, a patient of mine who was completely sedated, sat up out of nowhere, looked me in the eye and said "do you tweeze your eyebrows...because if you didnt' they'd probably be very bushy" hahahahah
10. I want to dance
Here is my top 10 of today 2007:
1. It's Friday night and i've been in doing work all night, and i love it
2. Andrew Bird showed up last night and made us all go out which led to lots of flip cup and pepes and fun
3. spring fling tomorrow - head automatica, reel big fish, rides, food, AND FUn..woot
4. i love dodging carnival rides to get to class
5. Im starting to get everything ready from the Dominican Republic-and on top of that stressing out majorly about summer, where i'm gonna be, if i'm ever going to get a good job...
6. At clinical the other day I asked an old woman to draw me 2 octagons and she took the paper, traced her hand, and handed it back to me-haha im gonna miss those old people
7. today i think was the most productive day I've had in a long time
8. I feel like i almost know what i'm doing at clinicals now, im not always nervous and i can do real nursing things without messing up
9. I've been really stressed out lately, but surprisingly in really great moods
10. i want to dance
top 10 of the day in 2006:
1. i wish it was summer
2. this has been the longest week of my life...and its only wednesday
3. i want amanda back, real bad
4. spring fling this weekend, mtvU campus invasion tour - free: motion city soundtrack, straylight run, rides, food, AND FUN..woot
5. i love dodging ferris wheels to get to class
6. my tuesday morning class was cancelled cause the building was on fire (i can only hope for the same tomorrow morning)
7. today i think was the best day i've had in a long time.
8. things are still not good on 3mx
9.i'm physically drained, exhausted, i dont eat anymore, and i'm frustrated and irritated ( only when i'm in my room and thinking about things)
10. i want to dance
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| Insomnia |
[30 Jul 2007|01:29am] |
ok i have not had trouble falling asleep ONCE this summer
and tonight i just cant do it
i know its not terribly late or anything
but i have been rolling around bed forever and i am still awake
and im tired and frustrated
and i can think of about 120 more productive things that i could be doing now
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[10 Jul 2007|08:40am] |
i hope that god grants my body the ability to move tonight
icantwaittodance.
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[27 Jun 2007|10:41pm] |
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ok so looks like bing wont be so bad
you know i've only been here for a day
but i like being alone
its kind of relaxing
and not having to worry about going to bed and waking up
or walking around not wearing a lot of clothes (not that i do that often but its effin hot in here)
its nice
but for now i need need need need a job
and i applied for jobs in syracuse and here
so whatever i get first i will have to take
but i'm kind of hoping it will be here
we will see
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[26 Jun 2007|01:38pm] |
So I had a mini nervous breakdown last night-this morning
and by mini i mean evan definitely thinks i'm a nutcase now
and i'm supposed to be in bing
but for some reason i'm still just sitting alone in evan's room in connecticut
meh, i gotta get back to real life tomorrow
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| it's not judgement, it's just an observation |
[22 Jun 2007|09:12am] |
so lots of things
i'm back from the DR
it was amazing, a journal entry wont do it justice so i'm not even gonna try
i went to bing for a few days to apply for jobs
no one's called yet
i'm at evans in CT now
its good to see him but he's very busy and has his own life here
and i just sit in his room for like 10 hours a day - very boring
and i'm not looking forward to going back to bing
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[29 May 2007|03:51pm] |
off to the dominican republic in 2 days
see you all at the end of june!
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[02 May 2007|10:38am] |
ok so im freaking out
i dont have a job for the summer...(except the gap, which doesnt even count as a job)
I can't find ANY in syracuse, that i'll make real money at
and that will hire me for the big almost month and a half that i'll be home
so i might have to stay here
which actually makes me want to be sick
there is nothing i would like to do less than stay in binghamton all by myself
i would probably go absolutely crazy
i mean i know about 3 other people that will be here
but no one in my house..i dont know if i'm ready to live alone yet?
so basically if anyone wants to just give me anywhere around $3,000 that would be awesome
thanks.
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[29 Apr 2007|05:58pm] |
so i just need to explain my yesterday
because it was probably the most random day of my life
we spring flinged in the rain
had a huge family dinner
then went to the reel big fish and sugarcult show (head automatica cancelled on us)
after we went downtown to mad moose
a decent number of people there but not a ton...
so we look over, and sugarcult's at the bar
now god knows i only know like 2 of their songs, and i'm not going to even pretend i really like their band
buuuutttt, needless to say they're famous
and i've never met anyone famous...
so we talked to them for awhile which was amusing, evan was drooling over them like a teenage girl and suzie was just amusing them - all in all a good time
THEN - on the walk home from downtown we stop because a cop hit 2 men on a bike. the men werent hurt, but the bike was smashed...and do you know what the cop did...the cop wrote the man 3 tickets..this man barely spoke english and didnt even understand what was going on...needless to say we tried to explain to him that he just got fucked over but i dont think he got it
anyways we didnt end up getting home till about 4, which means im exhuasted so i cant write anymore hahha
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| Lets Show Them How to Live |
[27 Apr 2007|10:42pm] |
so this was my post on exactly this day last year-lets compare
top 10 of the day:
1. i wish it was summer
2. this has been the longest week of my life...and its only wednesday
3. i want amanda back, real bad
4. spring fling this weekend, mtvU campus invasion tour - free: motion city soundtrack, straylight run, rides, food, AND FUN..woot
5. i love dodging ferris wheels to get to class
6. my tuesday morning class was cancelled cause the building was on fire (i can only hope for the same tomorrow morning)
7. today i think was the best day i've had in a long time.
8. things are still not good on 3mx
9.i'm physically drained, exhausted, i dont eat anymore, and i'm frustrated and irritated ( only when i'm in my room and thinking about things)
10. i want to dance
Here is my top 10 of today 2007:
1. It's Friday night and i've been in doing work all night, and i love it
2. Andrew Bird showed up last night and made us all go out which led to lots of flip cup and pepes and fun
3. spring fling tomorrow - head automatica, reel big fish, rides, food, AND FUn..woot
4. i love dodging carnival rides to get to class
5. Im starting to get everything ready from the Dominican Republic-and on top of that stressing out majorly about summer, where i'm gonna be, if i'm ever going to get a good job...
6. At clinical the other day I asked an old woman to draw me 2 octagons and she took the paper, traced her hand, and handed it back to me-haha im gonna miss those old people
7. today i think was the most productive day I've had in a long time
8. I feel like i almost know what i'm doing at clinicals now, im not always nervous and i can do real nursing things without messing up
9. I've been really stressed out lately, but surprisingly in really great moods
10. i want to dance
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[05 Apr 2007|10:09pm] |
spring break has been a waste!
ive been sick ALL week
horrible.
evan comes back tomorrow which should be cool
i'm excited for him to spend easter here
I got my passport today
im officially off to the dominican republic in june!!
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[26 Mar 2007|10:32pm] |
i've never been so stressed in my entire life
and oddly enough i'm in a completely beautiful mood = )
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[11 Mar 2007|07:09pm] |
So this has probably been one of the best 4 day breaks i've had in awhile
thursday we went to vermont to go skiing
the weather was PERFECT
the skiing was great
everything was wonderful
last night evan's friends from home came up
we went dt and danced our little hearts out
all night long
it was a lot of fun
now tomorrow back to the real world.
but i get the nettles this weekend!!!
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[28 Feb 2007|01:18pm] |
I love Delilah I decided
everyone knows delilah..on the radio
Tuesday and thursday nights on my way home from class at 8 I always drive really slow
like slower than anyone should drive
and i listen to delilah
and drive slow
probably because i'm absolutely wiped cause i've been going since 5am..
and i just want to go home
watch american idol with evan
and pass out
..and that's what i get to do
haha im glad i got to share my tuesday nights with everyone
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[19 Feb 2007|12:42pm] |
ok
here's the problem
after seeing that baby being born the image is HAUNTING me
like it sounds funny...but in fact not funny at all
i had a dream last night that i was pregnant and it was AWFUL
everytime evan comes near me i want to wrap my body in plastic wrap
honestly
its getting in the way of things
ahhhh
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| All you need is love... |
[13 Feb 2007|08:36pm] |
today a saw an 8lb human squeezed out of a vagina
...yes i saw my first baby being born
and it was amazing
and i will never have a child.
happy valentines day tomorrow!
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| shakira, shakira |
[12 Feb 2007|03:16pm] |
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last night we had a grammys party!!
wooooo
we all dressed up like nominees...i was shakira..amanda was christina, suzie was luda, evan was justin timberlake, alex was john mayer, and adam was timberland hehe
it was a lot of fun..we love looking for excuses to dress up stupidly
This week i got 0 hours at work AGAIN for the second week in row
totally pissing me off cause im completely poor
so basically i just have to hope people cant work and call me to do it
which so far is working out ok except for tonight im skipping class to go to work because that's how poor i am
after i get gas to drive to both my clinicals this week (elmira and PA)..i will be out of money completely
Wednesday is valentines day and for the first time ever im not dreading it
me and evan have had some rough patches lately but things are getting better, we've done A LOT of talking and i think things are actually better than they were before , finally i feel like we're completely open with each other
its a relief.
now i have to get everything i have to do tonight done before work
cause when i get home i have to go straight to bed...i have to get up at 4:45 am tomorrow..disgusting.
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[31 Jan 2007|07:04pm] |
ok it's been a little bit
im back at school
things are crazy
so much work already
and tests
and clinicals are starting which are scary
on tuesdays im on the maternity floor of arnot hospital which is cool(other than it's an hour away and i have to be there at 7am), except im gonna be pretty embarrassed when i see a baby being delivered and i pass out
im very very scared and excited at the same time
thursdays im at the psych ward in Sayre, PA(yup like 40 minutes away and i still have to be there at 7am)
that should be interesting too
basically school is the only thing i'm focusing on now
although everything else is good
im glad to be back here in my own house with all my friends
fun 'cuse things to come in the future....but for now lets just say its still under construction : )
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[17 Jan 2007|11:31am] |
im in a better mood now haha
i've actually been seeing people which is good
it's sunny today which is also wonnnnderful
im about to go to panera with leah
and evan's coming later
so woo!
good moods all around...
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| where does the good go? |
[14 Jan 2007|12:10am] |
sometimes i get in these awful moods that i just cant get out of
no matter how hard i try
and i just want to sit in a corner and cry
and sometimes i cant let things in the past go
and i hate it, and i dont know why it is but i cant do it
and its just making everything 100 times worse
i want to leave.
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